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The Body Cries Too
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Author:  LadyKate [ Wed May 12, 2010 12:10 pm ]
Post subject:  The Body Cries Too

This may be incredibly boring for some of you and if so, sorry in advance. But maybe for one or two, this will have very deep meaning....
I wrote this today and I have not written anything other than a song or two in over a decade.
My format wasn't kept when I copied it over so I hope its not too hard to read.
Spoiler:
I think this was from my Littlest Angel and My Body, because, I was listening:


The Body was working. The woman was happy. This was the way things had always been.
Then, one day, The Baby came into being.
The Body knew before the woman did. The Body was happy and tried to tell The Woman, but The Woman was too young to know The Body's language.
The Baby grew, and very soon became aware of The Body. Hello Body said The Baby. Hello Baby, replied The Body. I have been preparing for you for a long time, said The Body.
And The Body nourished The Baby, pulling nutrients from various places and The Body provided comfort for The Baby by creating a nice, soft place in The Womb.
The Body was Happy. The Baby was Happy.
And soon, The Woman was happy. She had discovered the existence of The Baby. Also, The Body and The Baby together were able to be loud enough for Her to finally hear their presence and She began to pick up on their language because She was finally listening...every twinge, every pang, every burst of emotion, every bout of sudden fatigue or nausea....she didn't quite understand but She was listening very hard.
Changes occured for all three. The Woman was excited about the presence of The Baby, and regarding the changes....well, The Woman was so proud of The Body. Yes, she was.
One day, The Baby noticed Something. The Baby did not tell The Body. The Body continued working, day and night, day and night. Sometimes depriving The Woman in order to care for The Baby. The Body was working too hard to notice that The Baby was worried.
Gradually, The Baby realized that The Something was wrong. Very wrong. The Baby was afraid. Body! The Baby finally cried out. Yes, Little One, The Body responded, what is it? Something is wrong, The Baby told The Body. Do you know what The Something is and why it is wrong? queried The Body. No, no I don't know replied The Baby softly. Let me see said The Body. The Body saw, and The Body then Knew too that The Something was very wrong.
Body! cried The Baby. Yes, Little One? replied the Body softly. I am afraid, said The Baby, and I am in pain. Oh, Little One, I will try to fix it! exclaimed The Body.
And The Body tried. The Body continued to bring The Baby nourishment and keep The Womb warm and cozy. But The Body could not fix it. This Something was wrong, very wrong, and The Body and The Baby did not know what it was or how to fix it. Together, they tried to send messages to The Woman that Something was wrong. But they were not sure if she understood them or not. It can sometimes take a woman a long time to understand The Language that The Body and The Baby make together.
Body! cried The Baby feebly. Yes, Little One, replied The Body sadly. Body, whispered The Baby, I have to go. The Body was silent. The Body was sad. Are you sure asked The Body. Yes, replied The Baby. Where will you go asked The Body. I will float away back to where I came from, responded The Baby, and I will not be afraid anymore there and I will not hurt anymore there and I will be taken care of...but I will leave my earthly remains here..I cannot take them with me. I understand, conceded The Body sadly. Body! whispered The Baby. Yes, Little One, replied The Body. Body, will you do something with my remains after I leave, and will you take care of The Woman? Yes, The Body said slowly. Yes, yes I will. Thank you Body, said The Baby, you have been so good to me. You are welcome, Little One, said The Body. I love you.
Goodbye, Body, whispered The Baby. Goodbye, Little One, whispered The Body. And together, they tried to tell The Woman goodbye. Maybe she heard them, and maybe she didn't.
And just like that, The Baby was gone...floated away to wherever The Baby came from.
And The Baby was free, and The Body was sad, and The Woman maybe had a feeling but she didn't understand it and she did not know it.
The Body wept.
The Body waited a day or two...The Body was sad to stop bringing nourishment to The Baby and to stop building The Womb. But The Body accepted that The Baby was gone.
The Body started working to remove The Baby's earthly remains.
The Woman began to notice. She went for help, but there was nothing that could be done, The Something had already taken over and The Baby had already gone. And soon, after much hard work, The Baby's earthly remains were gone as well.
The Body was sad. The Woman was sad.
The Woman did not know about the relationship with The Body and They Baby. The Woman did not understand The Body.
The Woman hated The Body and blamed The Body for The Baby's departure.
I hate you, Body! The Woman screamed. I am sorry, said The Body, I tried so hard to fix it. But The Woman did not hear.
You betrayed me, Body! yelled The Woman. I loved The Baby, whispered The Body, I took care of The Baby. But The Woman did not hear.
The Woman's anger at The Body prohibited The Body from working properly. There was very little sleep and very little food.
Please feed me, sobbed The Body, I am weak and tired. But The Woman did not hear. The Woman was so sad The Baby had left and She still blamed The Body and would not feed it or let it rest.
The Body was sad, The Woman was sad, and they both suffered without The Baby. They suffered together, but alone.
Time passed slowly, and The Body and The Woman both began to recover from The Loss of The Baby. It was very slow, and it was very hard.
The Body missed The Baby. The Woman missed The Baby. They were both so lonely.
The Woman thought a lot. She reflected on everything that had happened. The Woman had spoken with other Women who had trouble with Their Bodies and Their Babies.
Gradually, The Woman began to understand more and more. She began to piece together the past about Herself, The Body, and The Baby.
Until one night, The Woman lay in bed. It had come together and She began to cry. Body! cried The Woman. Yes, Loved One, responded The Body. Body, I am sorry, sobbed The Woman, you tried to tell me and I didn't hear you. Thank you, whispered The Body, I have waited so long for you to hear me. I love you, whispered The Woman. And The Body was happy.
Maybe, whispered The Woman, maybe we will have another baby one day. The Body whispered back, yes I would like that very much.
And The Body was Hopeful, and The Woman was Hopeful, and they both went to sleep peacefully for the first time in many, many months.

Author:  Dash [ Wed May 12, 2010 2:33 pm ]
Post subject:  Re: The Body Cries Too

I never know quite what to say on subjects like this. Fearing I'll say the wrong thing tends to keep my responses short. Anyway I just wanted to say I read it and found it both meaningful and hopeful.

Author:  LadyKate [ Wed May 12, 2010 2:45 pm ]
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Thanks Dash.
I wrote it for all the moms who don't seem to understand the role their bodies play in stuff like this. So many women hate their bodies...it's very sad.
I just wanted to share, even if it doesn't really apply to very many people here. It makes me feel better.

Author:  Müs [ Wed May 12, 2010 2:51 pm ]
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I don't hate your body ;)

/hugs

Author:  Kirra [ Thu May 13, 2010 1:38 am ]
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Expressing is cathartic, I will listen when ever you need.

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