Keep bottling it up til it boils over in the form of raw, blinding anger.

I did enough of that last year and have the holes in the walls to prove it. Not a pretty sight.

Aizle, so what you're saying basically is that I need a mancave.
That's actually not a bad idea....I really don't get any "alone" time at all.

The "mancave" is more a facilitator. It's the alone time that's important. If you can accomplish that by long walks in a park, that works too. One of the reasons I like motorcycling is that you're basically isolated from most everything except riding. Can't really talk to anyone, answer the cell, etc. It's almost enforced meditation.

Been finding myself in a weird position lately where I've gotta be strong for everyone else. There's no time to cry, can't cry around others, gotta keep moving, be optimistic and positive, set a good example, keep everyone else from falling apart, etc.

I can cry on Nitefox' shoulder every once in awhile but I've got to be careful about that too because he is grieving as well even if he doesn't cry and I can tell that it bothers him when I'm upset.

So how do macho guys deal with their emotions without crying and stuff? I see guys do it all the time....compartmentalizing or something I think its called.

Aside from starting to drink massive quantities of beer and taking up farting and scratching my genitalia as a hobby, how can I continue to do this like the big dudes do? Because falling apart right now is really not an option.