Good luck, man. Hope you can come back as Brightsiege instead.
Take your time, we'll be here.
| The Glade 4.0 https://gladerebooted.net/ |
|
| Hiatus https://gladerebooted.net/viewtopic.php?f=7&t=7296 |
Page 1 of 2 |
| Author: | darksiege [ Sun Oct 02, 2011 4:54 pm ] |
| Post subject: | Hiatus |
I hate my life and everything internal about myself; I need to find a direction and go with it. If I do not improve myself soon, I will need a medication solution and it may already be too late for that. My swings of depression self loathing seem to be getting worse. I am continuously peering into the mirror and I do not see my own reflection, I see something I cannot stand. I go to bed each night hoping that I do not wake up in the morning. I see everyone around me and I envy what I perceive others as having that I wish I had. I cannot keep going on this way. I can barely control my anger and rage, feeling absolute disgust with a lot of people for no reason other than they are not miserable like I am. I read things that should not bother me and I wish I could do harm to the person who wrote it. I am not being the best person I should be to my SO and kids. I am failing them: my daughter hates me, my SO barely tolerates me, the other two children tolerate me at best. I am essentially nothing more useful than an extra source of income right now (my words, not theirs). It is even getting to the point where the times my SO and I have "quality time" are fewer and more infrequent because of my depression and mood. I will be peeking in every now and then, but I need to get my head straight before I have a psychotic episode (nothing board related), so I am going to take a small hiatus. |
|
| Author: | Micheal [ Sun Oct 02, 2011 5:00 pm ] |
| Post subject: | |
Take your Glade time and get some exercise, even walking helps. Get out in the sun and move. Try switching your music listening around to something softer and less violence referent for a while. Good luck, we'll miss you but you are more important than a few comments here and there. Take care, and heal well and quickly. |
|
| Author: | Rynar [ Sun Oct 02, 2011 5:03 pm ] |
| Post subject: | |
Take care of yourself, bro. You are well worth the improvements you are trying to make to your state of mind. We will miss you, and will be here when you return. You will be in my prayers. |
|
| Author: | Diamondeye [ Sun Oct 02, 2011 5:30 pm ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Hiatus |
Do what you need to do, bro, and don't be afraid to ask for help. I hope and pray all goes well for you, and we see you back and feeling better soon! |
|
| Author: | Jasmy [ Sun Oct 02, 2011 6:12 pm ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Hiatus |
Take care of yourself darksiege! You will be in my thoughts. /hugs |
|
| Author: | Arathain Kelvar [ Sun Oct 02, 2011 7:31 pm ] |
| Post subject: | |
Good luck, man. It looks like you've take a good first step. Take good care of your SO, you'll need that partnership. |
|
| Author: | Xerxes [ Sun Oct 02, 2011 8:06 pm ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Hiatus |
Take care of yourself DS, and do what you need to do. Hope to see you back here in the near future. Edited the DE to DS, sorry for the typo! |
|
| Author: | Aethien [ Sun Oct 02, 2011 8:29 pm ] |
| Post subject: | |
Good luck, man. Hope you can come back as Brightsiege instead. Take your time, we'll be here.
|
|
| Author: | Müs [ Sun Oct 02, 2011 10:12 pm ] |
| Post subject: | |
**** A man. HTFU, Rub some dirt on it and get back in the **** game. |
|
| Author: | LadyKate [ Tue Oct 04, 2011 10:03 pm ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Hiatus |
*hugs* |
|
| Author: | Vindicarre [ Tue Oct 04, 2011 10:17 pm ] |
| Post subject: | |
Peace, DS |
|
| Author: | Elmarnieh [ Wed Oct 05, 2011 5:28 am ] |
| Post subject: | |
*huggleboos* man. Take care be well. |
|
| Author: | Diamondeye [ Wed Oct 05, 2011 10:55 am ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Hiatus |
Xerxes wrote: Take care of yourself DE, and do what you need to do. Hope to see you back here in the near future. Psst.. it's DS, not DE. |
|
| Author: | Hokanu [ Wed Oct 05, 2011 4:50 pm ] |
| Post subject: | |
You have my support sir. May the winds of fortune be at your back. |
|
| Author: | darksiege [ Sat Oct 08, 2011 10:32 am ] |
| Post subject: | |
Update: About one week in and I think I just got dumped... |
|
| Author: | LadyKate [ Sat Oct 08, 2011 10:49 am ] |
| Post subject: | |
 :hugs:Things won't change overnight...they're going to take time. I'm sorry you're losing your relationship, ds. Try to keep working on what you need to work on anyway and don't let this set you back. We're here to support you if you want to come back from your hiatus so you have some peeps to talk to while you're lonely and to help cheer you on when you're feeling discouraged. I've been through periods in my life like what you have described so far, and I can assure you that it's only temporary and you can work through it. Getting dumped sucks and it hurts and it's super discouraging, but you will get through this and be happy again...just don't lose your focus on your ultimate goal of getting your sea legs and being happy again. |
|
| Author: | Taskiss [ Sat Oct 08, 2011 12:12 pm ] |
| Post subject: | |
I was talking to my son who just got dumped for the nth time and he asked me what someone can do to prevent that. After asking him what value he would give to love advice from someone who's been married 3 times, he told me that as many times as I've been around the block, I must have learned something... After a moment I told him the entirety of my knowledge on the subject: If you want to be loved, be lovable. Spoiler: |
|
| Author: | darksiege [ Thu Oct 13, 2011 8:12 pm ] |
| Post subject: | |
So... I am dumped but not dumped... She says this has to do with the fact that it just feels like something is missing, we are good room mates and friends, but just not awesome as a couple. But she does not want us to separate because she cannot afford to be on her own anymore. The ******* in me wants to tell her to choose one or the other and deal with it... the idiot in me is letting her have her way. |
|
| Author: | Hopwin [ Fri Oct 14, 2011 6:54 am ] |
| Post subject: | Re: |
darksiege wrote: But she does not want us to separate because she cannot afford to be on her own anymore. The ******* in me wants to tell her to choose one or the other and deal with it... the idiot in me is letting her have her way. Ugh, been there man. Save yourself the heartache and kick her out now before she starts dating other people. *edit* Oh and there is no sort of about it, you are dumped. |
|
| Author: | LadyKate [ Fri Oct 14, 2011 7:50 am ] |
| Post subject: | |
Hop is right, ds. Love is a choice....she may be missing some emotions in the relationship, but hey that's life, not Hollywood. She either loves you unconditionally or she doesn't...and she needs to pick one. It doesn't get to be "I don't want to be with you anymore because I'm not feeling warm fuzzies and heart skipping like in the movies but I still need you to be my meal ticket so I'm sticking around." Kick her *** out, but make sure she has a place to go and a plan before you help her carry her crap out of the door. Don't let yourself be used like that. *hugs* |
|
| Author: | TheRiov [ Fri Oct 14, 2011 7:54 am ] |
| Post subject: | Re: |
darksiege wrote: So... I am dumped but not dumped... She says this has to do with the fact that it just feels like something is missing, we are good room mates and friends, but just not awesome as a couple. But she does not want us to separate because she cannot afford to be on her own anymore. The ******* in me wants to tell her to choose one or the other and deal with it... the idiot in me is letting her have her way. I've been there. Not to make your troubles worse but this is usually code for "I'm cheating on you" I'm sorry. I've been there. its an awful feeling. |
|
| Author: | LadyKate [ Fri Oct 14, 2011 8:03 am ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Re: |
TheRiov wrote: I've been there. Not to make your troubles worse but this is usually code for "I'm cheating on you" +1 If she has not done it yet, she is making plans to do so...either daydreaming about it or already has a guy waiting in the wings. It's a very short step from what she said to actually beginning to "see" someone else. |
|
| Author: | Hopwin [ Fri Oct 14, 2011 8:11 am ] |
| Post subject: | Re: Re: |
TheRiov wrote: darksiege wrote: So... I am dumped but not dumped... She says this has to do with the fact that it just feels like something is missing, we are good room mates and friends, but just not awesome as a couple. But she does not want us to separate because she cannot afford to be on her own anymore. The ******* in me wants to tell her to choose one or the other and deal with it... the idiot in me is letting her have her way. I've been there. Not to make your troubles worse but this is usually code for "I'm cheating on you" I'm sorry. I've been there. its an awful feeling. +2 |
|
| Author: | Kirra [ Fri Oct 14, 2011 8:39 am ] |
| Post subject: | |
Im sorry DS . I wish you didn't have to go through this. It's very unfair of her to say she wants to stay together because she can't afford to live alone...I don't get that at all. She can justify living off of your income and not consider you a couple? That's pretty damn selfish...get out now before things get worse. Hugs |
|
| Author: | Foamy [ Fri Oct 14, 2011 9:25 am ] |
| Post subject: | |
Sorry you got all this crap to deal with. Get her out. Don't let her stay. It may not be the easiest decision, but most life decisions are never that. All the best, and remember to take care of yourself first. Get well Dude! /brohugs |
|
| Page 1 of 2 | All times are UTC - 6 hours [ DST ] |
| Powered by phpBB® Forum Software © phpBB Group https://www.phpbb.com/ |
|