Arathain Kelvar wrote:
Beryllin wrote:
If the definition of insanity is truly doing the same thing over and over while expecting a different result, one could almost declare me certifiable. What saves me from such a fate is that I don't expect a different result, I just hope for one. I'm 99.9% sure that ain't gonna happen.
Frustrating, sure, but it would all be worth it if you could somehow find a way to save
just one of our souls.
Has my sarcasm meter gone off?
I hope so, because I can not save anyone. Only God saves people by His grace through faith.
I can not give anyone faith. People have to make up their own mind and heart.
My greatest hope is that somewhere down the road, God uses something I typed here in the life of someone. For the Word of God will not come back to Him empty, and it can be a seed that lies dormant for a long time. And you know, I don't even have to know about it happening, though that would be nice. I really am nothing more than a sower, so to speak. It is God that gives life and reaps the glory. That's as it should be.
So, to give what you said a more proper phrasing, Arathain, it will all be worth it if God uses something I did here to reach someone here. Not for me, but for Him. But even if not, it'll still be worth it, because I sowed the seed.
It is also true that I have not done as well as I should have. Issues and my personality have crashed together and I have been far too contentious on certain issues. In some ways I am misunderstood, though I attribute that (in part) to my lack of typing skills that make long, detailed explanations of my points difficult, so I use short-hand that I understand but perhaps others do not. Attitudes get read into my posts that really are not there, and that's my fault.
My time here has not been wasted, though it could have been better. I probably won't know the full impact I have had (if any at all) till I stand before God and hear His judgment of how well or poorly I did.