LadyKate wrote:
Been finding myself in a weird position lately where I've gotta be strong for everyone else. There's no time to cry, can't cry around others, gotta keep moving, be optimistic and positive, set a good example, keep everyone else from falling apart, etc.
Being the ultimate manly man (who has prob as many hair products as you do- ask elmo
) I can easily answer this question.
I do it because I can. I do it so others in my life don't have to bear the burden. I don't think about it. I distract myself with the gym, with work, with my xbox, with drawing, assing off in Hellfire, and any other of a hundred distractions to keep me from actually looking at things and getting mad/depressed/melonchaly etc. All too often I have to be "the rock", and I don't mean Dwayne Johnson, tho I do look good in tights. When the distractions cease to work, I do the introspective thing, then I chastise myself for being a wuss and cowboy right back up. It's a perpetual motion machine fueled by distraction, bravado, and a sense of duty. I don't suggest getting on this treadmill- it sucks. Find time to express yourself and use it. You'll be a ton saner for it.