I'm sorry you lost another friend.
I've always thought that part about maturing must really be depressing. *hugs* Now might be the time to start mentoring some young folks or something...host a bible class with church or some thing where you can surround yourself with peeps that are youthful to balance things out a bit...I wish I could mail you a wife and a bunch of friends with live-for-20-more-years guarantees!!!
I'm glad your brothers seem to be doing ok...I have a brother in prison somewhere in Cali, haven't heard from him in two years. Somehow, I think he's safer in there from himself.
We are doing good over here...I still haven't found a job and I'm still grieving pretty hard, but we have a lot to be thankful for.