The Glade 4.0

People suck.


I'm white.



Got some friends that I've known since 3rd grade, but it's been years since I've seen 'em (air force brat...life gets in the way)

I produce music.

One of my best friends, also produces music (he's black) and DJ's at this bar.

Last Saturday I came out to see 'em and hang out. Of course, it's impossible for me to blend in, because I'm the goofy white guy hanging out with the popular DJ. I'm the only white guy who isn't all nervous and jittery around the black people, and I'm actually hanging out with the most popular black dude there (my friend, the DJ) so naturally people probably think I'm weird because I don't usually hang out there.

Friend introduces me to his girlfriend. I shake her hand, say "hi, nice to meet you" and no other words are exchanged for the rest of the night. She's 20 feet away and eyeing me. Maybe? I dunno, maybe she was looking at her man. But she had those "googley eyes"...know what I mean? She was attracted to me.

I'm wearing the Jesus t-shirt from cyanide and happiness where Jesus is sittin in a chair talking to a shrink and says "Sometimes I get this weird feeling people are trying to find me"

I show my friend. He laughs. We're talking about music the whole time.

Afterwards, we go to iHop for some food. I give my DJ friend a ride over, since I was sobering up...before going in (i'm the one that suggested ihop) I said I'm gonna order chicken strips basket and a belgian waffle...he cracks a joke about chicken and waffles...I didn't realize this was a black-only thing? At the table, his girlfriend gives me a coupon. Another friend in their rap group, the main emcee, buys my dinner, because he's drunk...but he's the nicest dude ever, too, and I can tell he respects me. HIS girlfriend gives him the evil eye because he's drunk and probably thinks that's the reason he's buying my dinner. I don't want to refuse because that's rude, and I offer to buy him a shot next time, or get him back next time. We're cool.

Friend invites me to come out next saturday (last night) and invites me over to hang out to get our drink on before hitting the bar.

Next day I notice on Facebook my friend (the dj) posts a checklist format of things and one of the items is "girlfriend problems: check"

I'm thinking "Oh, damnit. Really? Really...."

I text him a song suggestion during the week...no response.

I text him at the time he told me to text him to hang out...no response.

I text an hour later to say hi again...no response.


Is it just me, or is my theory here correct....his girlfriend feels attracted to me and tries to make it like it's my fault, like I came onto her? All I did was say hi. Now they both feel like their relationship is threatened by my presence. Not to mention, I came to the bar by myself (a lot of people my age that aren't married act like this and I work nights so I was rolling solo) and didn't know anyone so I was just hangin with my friend who was the DJ, and he might be weirded out by the fact that I also produce music.


I dunno. People are lame. So I stayed home, posted on the Glade, made a penis size thread, and watched a movie (The Machinist). Took a break from my book / martial arts / exercise today.

I can't tell if I'm doing something wrong, or my friends are just insecure a-holes or they are racist or maybe he just didnt answer his phone cause all they do is drink.


I have the same issue with one of my best friends, happens to be a girl, we're really great friends. She wants me. I want her. She's seeing someone else. You see, when we met at work, she had a boyfriend (which she is no longer with) but she came onto me...huge feelings of guilt displayed by her, which I ignored...the only time we hang out alone is at her place when her BF is at work. I didn't make a move, because it's wrong...but we talked. Now...9 months later after their breakup and 4 boyfriends later, it's the same situation, except we've both agreed to one another that we are just friends. I'm totally fine with this, because I'm beating women away with a stick most of the time. I HATE it. Impossible to hang out with her outside of work, without her being weirded out. You see, she's a hot girl and pretty much every guy comes on to her or ignores her, I don't come on to her, but we're both 100% honest with each other. She's like, the only honest friend I have...in fact, you see, she has the same problem as I do with getting to know people. It's funny and sad at the same time.


Lmao. So I stay home, produce music, and write a book, because nobody wants to hang out, and the people that do--all they do is drink and the things I'm interested in and have knowledge about are totally outside the scope of their knowledge and interests.



I guess it's like Cartman says...if you want some quality friends you gotta wade through the dicks first. On top of that, there's the night-shift thing which makes it difficult to meet cool people except on the weedends in a bar where everything is a drunken blur of loud music. I like music. Hate drinking my life away in a bar all the time. Then, people think I'M anti-social for being this way, because everyone else is interested in things like basketball and fantasy football and golf, whereas I'm interested in martial arts, skateboarding, snowboarding, and music production, philosophy and psychology.

Oh, and another girl (she first came onto me while she was living with her boyfriend, drunk, at a work party, lol) I want who is also extremely good looking (I think they call it hot-girl-bitch syndrome? I dunno, it's a term a friend of mine used when I told him about this girl) but she likes me...a LOT...loves hanging out with me, but doesn't understand that she can't attract me by making me jealous. She's a 30 year old mother of 3 kids (oldest is 13) and I figure she's over all of that childish BS...but she's apparently in a midlife crisis. Tramp stamp tattoo of a rose that is covering up her ex husbands name (glad I didn't f*ck her, I woulda lost my boner after seeing the name that she recently covered up) and has a tattoo of her own name on her forearm. You see, all of the guys at work want her, too. She's SMOKING hot and has a great personality. She's gorgeous...no brain, though. She's crazy, though, because she doesn't have the common decency to apologize for standing me up a few times and hooking up with another guy at work that I was aware of, she denies the entire thing. Then she thinks *I* have a confidence problem or maybe I hate her because I'm not hitting on her (since ALL guys hit on her because of the way she looks/acts)...when really I'm just trying to keep to myself because I think if I hook up with her, she'll just continue to hit on other guys and cheat on me like she tried to cheat on her current boyfriend (fiance, actually, at the time) with me.

Ugh.

Lame.


Oh, and I probably should've watched a comedy rather than "The Machinist" ...my female friend (the smart one) is dating a guy that's way too much like Christian Bale's character in that movie...especially with the guilt/depression. Kind of scary now that I realize that now. He's cool as hell, though...a lot like me...way too much in common....except he's extremely depressed. You see, I'm too close of a friend with this girl, and since I'm a guy and because of our level of honesty, she's probably weirded out and doesn't want to feel awkward around me...which, I COMPLETELY understand....I've been in her situation before. I've done so much to help, too, talking about depression and the like. I don't mind helping with these type of things, because I understand how it is. I would make a good philosopher / psychologist. My female friend is one of those girls that is attracted to guys that have serious issues in their life and she tries to fix them and change them. Go figure...lol.

I really need to get off of this night shift...haha.

okay, /end rant


FACEBOOK-esque Status Update: is listening to Dark Side of the Moon. Time has the most amazing guitar solo!!!

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Ron Paul 2012

Omg Nev...is it possible you overthink things?

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it's true lol...i'm bored staying up at night when everyone else is sleeping. swing shift FTL...totally not for me anymore.

haha


I have a theory though, that it has to do with being a good listener, to the point of getting into microexpressions...and certain people are better at noticing them than others.

Have you ever seen the show "Lie to me"? with Tim Roth?


His character is Dr. Cal Lightman who is based off a real person, Dr. Paul Ekman.

http://www.paulekman.com/

Now recently it seems like a lot of people around me are upset about things but can't figure out why or how to get out of their mindset...I think it has to do with them able to subconciously pick up on microexpressions and subtle expressions and not conciously know what is going on...while certain people are naturally better at noticing these things.

I think it's the reason a lot of royalty or gods shouldn't be looked in the eyes...like a princess or something...noone can look her in the eyes....or medusa....lol

I look everyone in the eyes and I can read social situations faster than most people. I almost hate it and I almost want to say ignorance is bliss...but it really isn't. People take advantage of you if you're not smarter than them. Period.

I guess that's why they say "ignorance is bliss". Sorry, for me...ignorance is NOT bliss. When people lie and talk about you behind your back it's easy to see the social effects very quickly. It's like a drop in a pool of water...the drop isn't big, which is what i'm able to see...i'm able to see it because i notice the waves it causes. Most people can't see the waves...they only feel them and don't know why they feel them.

It's like learning to see your monitor flicker at 60 hz and then you have to have a full 85 hz or else not enjoy it...oh, and since you switched it to 85hz you realize you're not getting those headaches anymore. Or learning to ride a bike. It's easy to learn and once you learn it you know it forever...like microexpressions.

Now, I've taken the test and gotten a 100% I have family and friends try it out and they score nowhere close. I don't feel special, it is just easy for me.

I'm talking with a few different people on the subject and they both see the same things as I see, the other people are just lying or have ulterior motives. I mean it's not like a crazy conspiracy theory type thing...people are really doing this, what needs to be done is more effective communication, from both ends.

People being dicks and not answering their cell phone pisses me off. lol


i'm tellin you..his girlfriend likes me, he knows it, and now he's not speaking to me.

pretty childish.

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Ron Paul 2012

Dude, I read it a couple of times and I honestly am not making the connection where you decided that your friend is ignoring you because of girlfriend insecurities.

/second Kirra

Nev, just be who you think you should be. Let others choose to be your friend - or not - and don't change yourself to meet their expectations. If someone screws you over, then fine. Now you know who they are. Don't let people push you around, but don't resist letting someone show themselves to you either.

I get the impression you're going through changes... perhaps you're young and growing up, or perhaps you're just at that point in life where you're going through changes 'cause something important happened... either way, just go sit under a tree somewhere for some good long time and figure out who you are, then be that person fully.

The truth will set you free.

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In time, this too shall pass.

just woke up to a text


it's the girlfriend


he's whipped.


my apologies for being so verbose

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Ron Paul 2012

I would just like to add that I am also white.

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I would like to add that I would probably enjoy trying chicken and waffles.

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It feels like all the people who want limited government really just want government limited to Republicans.
---The Daily Show

Aww, man...never had it? It's the perfect combo. I always get chicken, fries, and a belgian waffle when I go there.

Ahhhhh...hate b*tches. That place is ghetto anyways...fight broke out at the end of the night...lol.

Damn.

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Ron Paul 2012

Come to LA: Roscoe's House of Chicken and Waffles, AKA "Mecca" to afficionados. There's one in the 'hood, and another one in a not-so-hood neighborhood. I think you'd dig the place.

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This cold and dark tormented hell
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So when you get to heaven
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*mouth watering* =)

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Ron Paul 2012

lol I seriously think it's still a race thing especially with me ordering chicken and waffles...I think they got offended.


Jesus christ.












(RACIST!)

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Ron Paul 2012

Damn, dude. You are such a racist!!!

How dare you order chicken and waffles?!?! BTW, I've never had it, but I think I'll have to try it. It sounds awesome!

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It seems like every time I have it the chicken is dry; I end up putting too much syrup on to make up for the dryness.

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"Dress cops up as soldiers, give them military equipment, train them in military tactics, tell them they’re fighting a ‘war,’ and the consequences are predictable." —Radley Balko

I make some slammin' fried chicken.

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Ezekiel 23:19-20 

I usually dip the chicken strips in honey mustard....much less often ranch and bbq.

I like the combination of spicy lunch and sweet breakfast...it's awesome. If I'm having an omelette and waffles or french toast (because f*ck pancakes!) then I'll even put syrup on the eggs, or sausage/bacon if there is any.

...and sometimes I dip my french fries in my chocolate shake, and that's what brings all the boys to the yard.

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Ron Paul 2012

Rynar: That would solve my problem if you weren't 3000 mi. away, and allowed me access to your freshly fried chicken at say, 2:00am; I usually get a craving for chicken and waffles when I'm half in the bag.

Nev:
**** chicken strips. It ain't chicken and waffles if it ain't fried chicken and waffles.

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"Dress cops up as soldiers, give them military equipment, train them in military tactics, tell them they’re fighting a ‘war,’ and the consequences are predictable." —Radley Balko

Hmm... I'm thinking a double down pressed between a pair of eggos.

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Holy shitsnacks!

Strange, that's usually when I wind up making it. Cleaning the caked on bullshit off the waffle-iron and out of deep-frier in the morning with a brutal hangover be damned. I also only use real vermont maple syrup or southern style sausage gravy, also.



QFMFT

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Ezekiel 23:19-20 

Lol, now we just need to solve the damnable 3000 mile problem. I demand a teleporter, it is my right as an American to travel freely!

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"Dress cops up as soldiers, give them military equipment, train them in military tactics, tell them they’re fighting a ‘war,’ and the consequences are predictable." —Radley Balko

I find your ideas intriguing and I wish to subscribe to your newsletter....

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"I Live, I Love, I Slay, and I Am Content."
- Conan the Barbarian

I guess that's what separates me from the blacks.




















....kidding. lol

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Ron Paul 2012